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so here’s a kind of eulogy to my days of smoking.  a dreamy boy and a perfect sky.  some billy collins brilliance (thought i’d post this again, since it’s kind of the perfect farewell to this love affair), and a few more (deceptively) glam images …
There are many that I misshaving sent my last one out a car windowsparking along the road one night, years ago.The heralded one, of course:after sex, the two glowing tipsnow the lights of a single ship;at the end of a long dinnerwith more wine to comeand a smoke ring coasting into the chandelier;or on a white beach,holding one with fingers still wet from a swim.How bittersweet these punctuationsof flame and gesture;but the best were on those morningswhen I would have a little something goingin the typewriter,the sun bright in the windows,maybe some Berlioz on in the background.I would go into the kitchen for coffeeand on the way back to the page,curled in its roller,I would light one up and feelits dry rush mix with the dark taste of coffee.Then I would be my own locomotive,trailing behind me as I returned to worklittle puffs of smoke,indicators of progress,signs of industry and thought,the signal that told the nineteenth centuryit was moving forward.That was the best cigarette,when I would steam into the studyfull of vaporous hopeand stand there,the big headlamp of my facepointed down at all the words in parallel lines. 






hearts forever.
Jul 5, 2010 / 3 notes

so here’s a kind of eulogy to my days of smoking.  a dreamy boy and a perfect sky.  some billy collins brilliance (thought i’d post this again, since it’s kind of the perfect farewell to this love affair), and a few more (deceptively) glam images …

There are many that I miss
having sent my last one out a car window
sparking along the road one night, years ago.

The heralded one, of course:
after sex, the two glowing tips
now the lights of a single ship;
at the end of a long dinner
with more wine to come
and a smoke ring coasting into the chandelier;
or on a white beach,
holding one with fingers still wet from a swim.

How bittersweet these punctuations
of flame and gesture;
but the best were on those mornings
when I would have a little something going
in the typewriter,
the sun bright in the windows,
maybe some Berlioz on in the background.
I would go into the kitchen for coffee
and on the way back to the page,
curled in its roller,
I would light one up and feel
its dry rush mix with the dark taste of coffee.

Then I would be my own locomotive,
trailing behind me as I returned to work
little puffs of smoke,
indicators of progress,
signs of industry and thought,
the signal that told the nineteenth century
it was moving forward.
That was the best cigarette,
when I would steam into the study
full of vaporous hope
and stand there,
the big headlamp of my face
pointed down at all the words in parallel lines. 

hearts forever.

You are the bread and the knife,the crystal goblet and the wine.You are the dew on the morning grassand the burning wheel of the sun.You are the white apron of the baker,and the marsh birds suddenly in flight.However, you are not the wind in the orchard,the plums on the counter,or the house of cards.And you are certainly not the pine-scented air.There is just no way that you are the pine-scented air.It is possible that you are the fish under the bridge,maybe even the pigeon on the general’s head,but you are not even closeto being the field of cornflowers at dusk.And a quick look in the mirror will showthat you are neither the boots in the cornernor the boat asleep in its boathouse.It might interest you to know,speaking of the plentiful imagery of the world,that I am the sound of rain on the roof.I also happen to be the shooting star,the evening paper blowing down an alleyand the basket of chestnuts on the kitchen table.I am also the moon in the treesand the blind woman’s tea cup.But don’t worry, I’m not the bread and the knife.You are still the bread and the knife.You will always be the bread and the knife,not to mention the crystal goblet and—somehow—the wine.
(via Sea of Shoes: Cockroaches, Cupcakes & Cartoons)
Aug 1, 2010 / 21 notes

You are the bread and the knife,
the crystal goblet and the wine.
You are the dew on the morning grass
and the burning wheel of the sun.
You are the white apron of the baker,
and the marsh birds suddenly in flight.

However, you are not the wind in the orchard,
the plums on the counter,
or the house of cards.
And you are certainly not the pine-scented air.
There is just no way that you are the pine-scented air.

It is possible that you are the fish under the bridge,
maybe even the pigeon on the general’s head,
but you are not even close
to being the field of cornflowers at dusk.

And a quick look in the mirror will show
that you are neither the boots in the corner
nor the boat asleep in its boathouse.

It might interest you to know,
speaking of the plentiful imagery of the world,
that I am the sound of rain on the roof.

I also happen to be the shooting star,
the evening paper blowing down an alley
and the basket of chestnuts on the kitchen table.

I am also the moon in the trees
and the blind woman’s tea cup.
But don’t worry, I’m not the bread and the knife.
You are still the bread and the knife.
You will always be the bread and the knife,
not to mention the crystal goblet and—somehow—the wine.

(via Sea of Shoes: Cockroaches, Cupcakes & Cartoons)

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